Over the years, Lynn and I have gotten really close. She has been my mentor and let me tell you that there is no one I'd rather have to look up to than HER. She was in town a few weeks ago, and I knew she'd be upset with me if she knew the life I was living. I had gotten out of church for the last year, and my health got to me. Let's call it for what it was, I was mad that I wasn't getting my way. Who better to blame than Jesus. I didn't know how much I needed my sweet friend that week. When you have a friend that prays with you, you have everything! The last few weeks all that has played in my mind was the grace, oh the grace she has given me. She points me back to Jesus in every conversation that we have but I always know that she loves me. I watched her heart break while mine was breaking and heard more times than I could count "I love you!" I had asked her to stop praying for me, I have cried, complained, and threw a fit before in front of her. Yet she responded with grace and boldness. She is strong, and everything I want to be! She is also the only one that I will truly listen too. 

Tonight, Jesus just grabbed my heart, and I surrendered my dystonia to Him completely. In the late-night hours where it was just Jesus and I... I heard so clearly, "I love you for who you are." Usually, all the bad with medical replays in my mind but tonight all the good replayed. Dystonia has brought a lot of brokenness but oh, it has brought a lot of beautiful. I wouldn't have gotten saved if it wasn't for Dystonia, and I never would've had that encounter with Matt that led to a beautiful friendship with his wife. If there is never a cure, I will still love Him because I know one day I will be made new again. 

My prayer for you tonight is that you will feel the same love that I have felt over these past few weeks. My friends have reminded me that the same God that made us continues to care about the very things we care about.